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On January 13, 2026 @ 8:00 PM, we had the honor and privilege of sitting down with Pastor April Robinson for a deeply candid and heartfelt discussion surrounding some of the most tender parts of her life — walking through multiple abortions and battling pill addiction.
Pastor April shared her story with remarkable transparency, reminding us that healing begins when truth is spoken and light is allowed into the places we once kept hidden.
This conversation was not about judgment — it was about understanding, restoration, and the life-changing grace of God.
🌿 A Childhood Marked by Loneliness
Pastor April described herself as a very lonely child — so lonely that she created an imaginary family filled with love, joy, and connection. It became a place of comfort when real life did not provide the emotional safety she longed for.
In her household, communication was not modeled in a healthy way. Instead of learning how to express feelings openly, it often felt like everyone was living for themselves.
She shared that she frequently felt voiceless, unsure where she belonged or how to be heard.
⚖️ The Weight of Being Called “The Favorite”
Although some may think being labeled the “favorite child” is a privilege, Pastor April revealed the hidden burden that came with that title.
Her parents often compared her siblings to her, saying things like:
- “Why can’t you do it like April?”
- “April always does this right.”
- “April always does that well.”
While she was placed as the standard others were expected to reach, it was never a position she desired. What appeared to be honor actually created division.
This led to a painful sibling rivalry that caused her older sister to struggle with resentment toward her for many years.
Her story reminds us of something very important:
👉 Parents must be careful not to compare their children.
Comparison can plant seeds of competition, jealousy, and emotional harm — both for the child being elevated and the ones feeling overlooked.
💭 Escaping Into Fantasy
Growing up in a dysfunctional family environment caused Pastor April to dream of a “perfect family,” much like the loving images she saw in Disney movies.
Those pictures shaped her expectations of love — expectations she carried into her first serious relationship with the father of her child.
But when reality didn’t match the dream, pain surfaced.
In her own honesty, she shared that she sometimes tried to force love through conflict. Their relationship became unhealthy, and there were multiple encounters involving domestic violence.
Pain often expresses itself in ways we don’t recognize at the time.
As Pastor April’s story reveals:
Pain wears many masks.
💔 A Decision That Was Not Her Own
After becoming pregnant a second time, Pastor April shared that her parents made the decision for her to have an abortion — one she did not want.
She went to the appointment accompanied by a friend, carrying emotional weight that would follow her for years.
While there, she witnessed another young woman pleading with her mother not to make her go through with the procedure. Watching that moment unfold created a second layer of trauma.
She described the experience as deeply heartbreaking.
What made it even harder was the silence that followed. She hoped the father of her child would comfort her or help her process the pain — but instead, life seemed to continue for him while her world felt shaken.
In her hurt, she admitted that she did everything in her power to make him feel the depth of her pain by creating chaos in his life.
When pain goes unhealed, it often searches for somewhere to land.
😔 Numbing the Pain
After the abortion, sleep became difficult. What started as a small reliance on sleeping pills quickly grew into a dangerous addiction.
She shared that the number increased drastically — eventually reaching up to 260 pills a month.
The addiction began affecting her body, her mind, and her emotional health.
What started as an attempt to find rest became another chain she needed freedom from.
But even in that dark season, God never stopped pursuing her.
🌸 The Hope Within Her Story
Pastor April’s testimony is a reminder that no matter how broken life may feel, God is still able to restore.
Her journey shows us that:
- Loneliness does not have the final say.
- Trauma does not define your future.
- Addiction is not stronger than God’s power.
- Your past does not disqualify you from healing.
Where shame once tried to settle, grace stepped in.
Where pain once ruled, healing began.
✍🏽 Journal Prompts to Help You Process
Take a quiet moment to reflect:
- Did I experience comparison growing up that still affects me today?
- Are there areas of my life where I have been silently carrying pain?
- Have I tried to numb emotional wounds instead of healing them?
- What does forgiveness — including self-forgiveness — look like for me?
- Where might God be inviting me into deeper emotional healing?
Remember, awareness is often the first step toward freedom.
📖 Scripture & Truth Points from Pastor April’s Story
Psalm 147:3
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”
Romans 8:1
“There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus.”
Matthew 11:28
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Joel 2:25
“I will restore to you the years that the locust has eaten.”
Let these truths remind you — God is still restoring lives every single day.
🌼 Takeaways for Healing
- Comparison within families can create lasting emotional wounds.
- Unprocessed pain often leads to unhealthy coping mechanisms.
- Addiction frequently begins as an attempt to escape emotional suffering.
- Healing starts when we confront what we have tried to bury.
- God meets us with compassion, not condemnation.
- Restoration is always possible.
No matter your story — there is hope ahead. Grab resources for healing below.
🎥 Watch the Replay
Missed this powerful conversation?
We encourage you to watch with an open heart. You never know how God may speak directly to you through someone else’s testimony.
💬 Join the Conversation
Did Pastor April’s story resonate with you?
Your reflection, encouragement, or testimony could help someone else feel less alone in their healing journey.
👉 Share your thoughts in the comments below.
Let’s continue building a community where honesty is welcomed, healing is possible, and every story matters.
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